(via icanread)
yes, forgot to breathe.
especially now, when exams is just around the corner. and i'm still going through the endless notes frantically.
doesnt help that drilling is going on outside the house (they are constructing the lifts), drilling below the house (renovation going on).. drilling EVERYWHERE!
plus having to melayan my aching tooth / whatever it is that's causing the pain. just realised ada ulcer plak at the part where the tooth is hurting. :/
pain that is really out of this world, i'm telling you.
it's making me very moody cos i'm constantly in a state of hunger (good time to puasa really but i need my painkillers hence i need to eat) and i dont wanna eat bubur or oats anymore. the thought of it makes me wanna puke.
currently i'm relying on mashed potatoes. but even that will tire me out eventually. have to constantly remind myself that this pain is temporary.
temporary.
with all that is going on, i sometimes forgot to breathe.
i sometimes forgot that God is testing me.
i sometimes forgot that He will bring me through this pain.
So dear Allah, i know i always forget (yes humans are made with a sense of forgetfulness)
but do forgive me when i forget.
reminder to self:
there are others going through a much worse pain than me. others who are going through permanent pain. hence thank you Allah for this temporary pain. help me to always be grateful to You. Ameen.
