rainbow cupcakes

(via fyeahalltheprettythings)

craving for some pretty rainbow cupcakes topped with cream cheese & nutella fillings please. thankyouverymuch.

*grin*

Rolex timepiece

(via fyeahalltheprettythings)

gosh. too pretty.

be. still. dear. heart.

only with you

~ with you...

(via uponafairytale)

Dear December, hello again.

hello December.

it's you again.

i guess you should know by now that you are a very special month for me. :)

you didn't disappoint me last year.

and i am very sure you won't disappoint me this year, insyaAllah.

because this year,

i have you in my heart.

you in my heart.

♥ ♥ ♥ 

p.s. i love you

(via uponafairytale)

one of my favourite books of all time.

the one book which can make me laugh and cry so hard at the same time.

didn't quite like the movie not because of the movie per se but didn't like Hillary Swank playing 'Holly'.. somehow how i picture Holly in my mind (before the movie came out) just didn't go with Hillary (no offense to Hillary as an actress, i mean she's amazing as one).. but something just feels off for me with her playing that role.. 

then again, maybe it's just me.. hee..

melancholic rainy days

It's been a while. Realised i haven't update for the month of November when the start of this month, last year i was so scared to receive this (kinda dreaded) month of November and remember praying my heart to be strong.

But, time flies they say. And it's November again. Although right now, it doesn't feel so dreadful anymore. Alhamdulillah. :)

Time heals all wounds ya. Or love heals. I choose to say love heals. Not necessarily love from another human being, or specifically love from another half.
But knowing that Allah continues loving you, is actually enough for you to heal. Trust me.

Thank you Allah for Your mercy & Your love. Because You are the only One who doesn't disappoint. I must always remember that.

Just changed the background to suit the rainy mood these few days and probably the next month or so. I love rainy days. :) The melancholic feeling that accompanies rainy days are very very very much loved. :)

And feeling melancholic will make me blabber non-stop. Yes, like right now. Hahaha.

Which is why i need this blog. I cannot not write or in this case type. Have always had a journal even back in primary school because i need to let my feelings out even if it's just on a piece of paper (although looking back, my worries back then has become laughable now.. hehe). I cannot just keep these feelings inside me without having an outlet to vent. It's an escapism for me. Writing. Which is why I have journals for my kids (i love calling my students, kids). So that at least, they have an outlet to express themselves, away from the prying eyes of other people who just want to know what's going on but not exactly bothering or caring.

At least when my kids write, they know they have someone to respond to. Though some don't get why they need to write a journal, some actually expressed their inner deepest feelings into the journal. And i'm happy to respond to their writings. Even if i can't solve their problems, at least they feel better writing it down and sharing with someone whom they trust.

Oh well, this is what happens when i blabber. i start writing about something and end up with something totally different. hehehe.

till the next 'melancholic' entry.

toodles!

because you are my happy ever after

"We talked about the old times,

and it made me smile

because you didn't forget."

(via thingsiloveyoutoknow)

every time, every single time when we reminisced, or we happened to talk about the past...

to have all these memories washed over us,

may it be good or bad,

or happy or sad,

it made me smile just a little wider,

because i knew you still remember. :)

because these memories are what made us stronger.

and made us more in love ever. ♥

i love you, my other half, my soulmate, my happy ever after.

♥♥♥

heart-shaped brownies

(via uponafairytale)

awww.

i would sooo love to make these.

♥ ♥ ♥ 

because everyone have scars

"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers."

(via uponafairytale)

it's inevitable you know,

these scars.

it can be about anything and everything. or nothing at all.

it can be big, small, or cannot even be seen by the naked eye.

the only thing we can do is,

move on.

and let time (or love) heal the wounds.

only then we can forgive ourselves for getting ourselves wounded,

or forgive others for wounding us.

only when we can be happy on our own,

then this scar will be nothing but just a scar.

and we won't even feel the pain anymore.

after all, scars are part & parcel of life itself.

without these scars, 

to remind us of what we have gone through,

then we never exactly have grown up.

without these scars,

then maybe, we'll never learn to love ourselves better.

without these scars,

we might not even know how to love others proper.

so, thank you scars.

for teaching us about life & love itself.

we owe you one.

though you can be very painful sometimes.

once upon a time.

(via misswallflower)

I call this,

the Snow White's ring.

:)

keep moving

"Life is tough. It ain't about how hard you hit.

But it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward."

(via loveyourquotes)

my heart loves you.

"I'm looking at you

and my heart loves the view."

(via lovequotesrus)

every time darling,

every single time.

♥♥♥

glitter blue heart

(via fyeahalltheprettythings)

I just find this really pretty. I'm easy to please like that. :)

of work & love.

So the past weekdays has been nothing but hectic, rushing & most of all, just tiring. What with the cluster sharing project, plus the endless markings (which has to be put aside, yet again) and of course the exam papers which have started streaming in. So yup, last week was just capital Y-I-K-E-S!

But of course, nothing i can't handle. Chey. Even if i think i can't handle, i still have to do it anyway, haha. God doesn't give you what you can't cope eh. So yup insyaAllah all will be well.. :)

Have to thank the-other-half for being so super understanding although we were missing each other like crazy. Ok, I was missing him like crazy. I just want to think that he is too. Hahaha.

It reached to an end on Thursday when eventually the whole cluster sharing thingy was over. Alhamdulillah it went really well. Although of course there were some last minutes running here & there. But what is a major project without some last minute shenanigans. Hurhur.

Yup, so the sharing did push my boundaries a little bit, ok make that a lot. The picture above is me sharing with the G.O.H about our programmes. Nerve-wrecking experience definitely!
But it was a wonderful learning experience overall. I'm just glad & thankful i have great colleagues to work with. :) 
Best part was when VP said i am going through a 'steep learning curve'. :)) you are so right la VP. 1st year & already made to do cluster sharing. O.o
But the R.O. was quite impressed with what I've been doing so far. So it's all good.. :)

and the whole hectic week ended on a super sweet note with the-other-half. ♥♥♥
felt so loved and appreciate all his efforts. :) ♥♥♥
Best part was when the-other-half remembered the soft cookies i once baked for him. so so touched. i think it's time to bake another batch for love. :)

So yup, a couple of best parts this week. May this blessings always continue. Insya-Allah. :))

failed a thousand times

"A thousand times i've failed

and still Your mercy remains."

(via islamicthinking)

i'm truly sorry ya Rabb.

have not been doing my religious duties properly and consistently.

yet, You are still ALWAYS there for me.

:'(

nothing to wearrrr

(via loodledoodles)

ME!

Every single working morning!!! LOL!

one of the most happiest things on earth?

"one of the most happiest things on earth?
it's when you know that you're in love
with someone who is more in love with you."

(via lovequotesrus)

someone who is more in love in you. :)

♥♥♥

looking forward to...

(via setmyworldintomotionx)

THIS! With you!

*mentel face*

hehehe..

everytime.



(via lovequotesrus)

smile i did, and always do. :)

for all the things that you have done,
for always making me feel better,
for the laughters, and the (kidding) banterings,
for loving me, for me.

ode to the future, insyaAllah.
:)

Always keep falling in love with you.

"As we grow older together,
as we continue to change with age,
there is one thing that will never change...

I will always keep falling in love with you."

(via lovequotesrus)

this gif always make me smile.

:)

Syawal 1433H

And so Eid was last Sunday.

That busy till I couldn't find the time to update till a week later. Hurhur..

Nevertheless, wish everyone had a pleasant celebration (filled with love, and of course food) with your loved ones. :)

Here is my cousin, my brother & me excited because we received raya money too. Hehe.

With that,

Salam Eid everyone! :)

Ramadan 1433H Post #07

“Allah does not impose upon any soul a duty but to the extent of its ability; for it is (the benefit of) what it has earned and upon it (the evil of) what it has wrought: Our Lord! do not punish us if we forget or make a mistake; Our Lord! do not lay on us a burden as Thou didst lay on those before us, Our Lord do not impose upon us that which we have not the strength to bear; and pardon us and grant us protection and have mercy on us, Thou art our Patron, so help us against the unbelieving people.”

- Surah 2. Al-Baqarah, Verse 286 -

yesterday, my students and i, plus some other teachers broke our fast at an orphanage.

it was my first time.

and the feeling was different, but a nice kind of different. :)

to know how blessed i am to have a home to go to. to have parents to go home to.

and these kids,

no promises can be made to them if they'll even see their parents.

it was so hard to control the tears. :'(

i hugged my mum long & tight the moment i reached home. :'(

may these kids be given strength and patience to overcome the challenges that they faced, are facing and will face in the future.

on another note,

time flies doesn't it.

We're almost reaching towards the end of Ramadan.

It's usually towards the end when you just got into that fasting groove that you kind of not look forward to it's ending. :/

well, that's just me.

hope your Ramadan has been a good one for you.

I love you more than ...

Taking another break from Ramadan posts cos the-other-half told me to listen to this.
And I couldn't stop smiling.

:))))))

"I never really believe that I'd find somebody that I love as much as you. I love you more than anything in the whole world."

Me: Dear, am I the best thing that's ever happened to you?

Him: Yes dear.

HEHEHE. Nak kena tanya jugak. ;p

Because you are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

And I love you more than chocolates. And fruit tarts. And ayam goreng.

 Cos these comfort foods i love very much too. LOL!

but really really,
so blessed.
thank you Allah.
:)

Ramadan 1433H Post #06

“To all those broken or hopeless, I have learned this:

Be grateful for every single person who was part of your story. The ones that hurt you. The ones that helped you. The ones that came, and the ones that left. They all taught you. Don’t think for a moment that any of it was random. There are no oversights with God. Only perfectly crafted chapters in each unique journey.”

- Yasmin Mogahed -

---

everything is nothing, but a blessing.

Allah sure knows best.

we are already entering 17 Ramadan. more than half-way through.

masyaAllah.

time flies indeed.

Ramadan 1433H Post #05

"O Allah, on this day, strengthen me in carrying out Your commands,

let me taste the sweetness of Your rememberance,

grant me, through Your graciousness, that I give thanks to You.

Protect me, with Your protection and cover, O the most discerning of those who see." 

Ameen.

(via duaoftheday)

Ramadan 1433H Post #04

another one of my favourite thing during Ramadan is of course the priceless pictures of people fasting all over the world.. :)

Street vendor plugs in decorations for Ramadan in Amman, Jordan, Thursday, July 19, 2012. (AP)

Muslim boys attend a mass prayer marking the start of Ramadan at the Golden Mosque in Quiapo, Metro Manila, Philippines, July 20, 2012. (Reuters)

Chinese Hui Muslim boys waits in front of food as they wait to break their fast on the first day of the Muslim holy month of Ramadan in Beijing, August 1. (Andy Wong/Associated Press)

(via thereligionofpeace)

take the stage, with David Beckham

Taking a break from my Ramadan postings because THIS video just made my day. I almost cried at 0:59.

Absolutely adorable!

i guess the crush never really went away.. hehehe..

Ramadan 1433H Post #03

And every year, especially during this Ramadan month, i learn (and re-learn) to be grateful with what i have.. because really, not everyone has it easy.. and then you realise, how really, really fortunate you are.. that all your complains, your whinings, can never, ever compare to theirs.. the fact that i have a family, to go home to, to iftar with.. alhamdulillah..

---

"My family - aside from my 8 y/o brother  (Alhamdulilah for His guidance), don’t believe in Islam.
When I break fast, I break fast alone.
When I make suhur, I make suhur alone.
When I pray, I pray alone.

Everyone else celebrates with their families. They talk about the family activities they are doing. They talk about the special “Ramadan food” their mom cooked.
They talk about eating Iftaar together with their family.

It’s a month where I realise more than ever that my own family doesn’t believe.
It’s a month where I realise the differences more and more.

I suppose I can’t handle watching everyone else post about how happy they are with their families.
Not because I resent any of you the happiness you experience, but rather because it makes me realise that,
I can’t have that with my own family."

(via salamseeker)

---

may Allah grant ease for her.. insyaAllah..

Ramadan 1433H Post #02

This is how we fast:

Sehri (sahoor): OH MY GOD STUFF YOUR FACES!!! OH MY GOD WATER…. oh my god is that the adhan, did I just miss sehri (sahoor)?!?


Noon: eh, i could do this…not hungry at all.


4pm: thirstyyyyyy…. IS THAT FOOD ON MY DASH? omg is that my baby cousin drinking water, how dare she, why are you so insensitive you 3-year-old.


6pm: I think the clock is seriously messing with us.


10 mins before maghrib: WOW… can the time be any slower ya Allah.


Iftar time: YES FOOD YESSSSS *eats only one date* IM SO FULL.


(via justkeepingithalal)


HAHAHA!
this is so me especially the iftar time (NOT the rest.. promise.. hahahaha).
i ate 3 dates on the first day & i was already full.. lol!

Ramadan 1433H Post #01

“Often we find that the darkest times in our lives are followed by the most precious. Sometimes it’s at the moment when everything looks broken that something least expected lifts us and carries us through. Like the sun that rises at the end of the night, our dawn has come. In His infinite mercy, Allah has sent the light of Ramadan to erase the night. He has sent the month of the Qur’an so that He might elevate us and bring us from our isolation to His nearness. He has given us this blessed month to fill our emptiness, cure our loneliness, and end our soul’s poverty. He has sent us the dawn that we might find from darkness – light.”

- Yasmin Mogahed -



This quote shall start off my yearly ritual of Ramadan postings. :)

Approaching Ramadan

“How we see God is a direct reflection of how we see ourselves. If God brings to mind mostly fear and blame, it means there is too much fear and blame welled inside us. If we see God as full of love and compassion, so are we.”

- The Forty Rules of Love, Elif Shafak -

Ramadan is approaching in 2 days' time.

1 more day to first night of terawih. :)

I'm pretty excited. :)

But this happens to me every single time. Will get all excited before the start of Ramadan, only to falter half-way through. Sigh.

And every single year I will make the same resolution - for my Ramadan to be better than the previous one. Hopefully this year I can be proud of my Ramadan.

Yang penting, niat tu ada eh. Hehe.

Whatever your niat may be,

may we all receive a blessed Ramadan this year.

InsyaAllah.

my very own fairytale

So, despite it being a long day in school yesterday followed by an hour of tuition, what follows after that was oh-so-worth the long day & lack of sleep. :)

and what was it that followed after that long day?

well, i had my share of  Subway across the border. YUMS! (though i wish i had bought some bread home for breakfast this morning. hehe. cos so jelak of canteen food.)
And my dosage of  motion picture.
And finally, let's just say it consists of a plan.. part of it is of us waking up at 4.45am in the morning. ;)

i'm happy for it to be our little secret.

till next time. *winkz*

for a reason

(via uponafairytale)

as always,

have faith.

things are sure to work out in the end.

after all,

He knows best. :)

only my best.

"You accept me at my worst

that's why you only deserve my best."

(via uponafairytale)

big heart

"The things that people in love do to each other they remember, and if they stay together,

it's not because they forget,

it's because they forgive."

thank you love.

time & again, you forgave.

that's how big a heart you have.

i love you.

Resilience

(via simplynorule)

Perseverance.

That is what that's keeping me going, especially when it comes to work or school. whichever. doesn't matter.

Things can get really tiring at times,

and me, being the lembik person that i am,

sometimes, feel like putting everything away & just run (this part kalau run betul-betul takpe, at least dpt lose some babats... lol!)

so yeah, i'm proud of myself for surviving the 1st year!

4 more years to go...

why 4 more years eh? lepas tu nak quit ke? nak jadi tai-tai boleh? haha. ok diam.

but neh, i plan to do this long term.

because i love them kids.

yup, all puluh-puluh of them.

but 1st year of course the most memorable...

my 1st form class,

my 1st cca with my lovable mak-nenek dancers (having to layan all their bitch fights & i-dont-want-to-talk-to-you moments)... love them nonetheless. been there done that girls.

my 1st few malay classes. from sec 1 all the way to sec 3.

my first camp.

my first teachers day.

my first eee.pee.em.ass (which i have every reason to be proud of)

yup, will remember it definitely.

plus the fact that during this first year,
someone came (back) into my life. :)
alhamdulillah.

life seems complete doesnt it. :)

i have everything that i need, that i want, and so much more.

blessed indeed.
alhamdulillah.

capturing moments of love

(via uponafairytale)

quite like us yeah, no?

oklah, almost..

just replace the small camera with a camera phone (must be of (not good) HTC brand) :p

hehehe..

with love from love ♥

Pleasant surprise received on Monday by the only one who knows me this well. ;)

thank you love.

♥♥♥

~ because it has always been you ~

This is me,

(via simplynorule)

EVERY SINGLE DAY.

Haha.

i miss baking

(via mysweetheart)

Will prolly do this during the school holidays considering that I might not be going anywhere for the holidays. Might as well make myself feel useful at home. Hehe.

The ABCs of Genuine Happiness

Accept your reality.
Be present. Be bold.
Create something exciting.
Drink plenty of water. Dance.
Exercise daily. Eat fresh foods.
Feel your emotions. Face fear.
Go outside and observe nature. Give.
Hug often. Help others.
Ignite your passions.
Jump through your comfort zone.
Kiss passionately. Keep looking forward.
Laugh. Love. Learn to let go.
Meditate daily. Make goals.
Never give up on what you want.
Own a pet. Observe beauty.
Pray. Paint. Play an instrument.
Quit a bad habit. Quiet your mind.
Read. Relax. Reinvent yourself.
Smile. Sleep. Simplify.
Take power naps. Talk wisely.
Unleash your strengths.
Vent. Visualise your dreams.
Walk. Write. Watch the sun set.
Xerox your smiling face. :)
Yell less. Yield to your thoughts.
Zap negativity.

(via uponafairytale)


Gonna print & paste this at my work station.
:)

Doing the blue ones.
Need to work on the red ones.

My favourite is 'Quiet your mind.' Mind aku sungguh bising. Haha.

how absolutely perfect

"Take a chance.

Because you never know how absolutely perfect something could turn out to be."

(via lovequotesrus)

Glad i took a chance then.

Even more glad i took a chance now.
Most glad you choose to take the chance with me.
*blessed*

:)

nothing can ever beat mummy's love

(via uponafairytale)

too sweet please.

i love you mummy.

:)

because He is All-Merciful

"So it got me thinking about how many things in our lives we mess up again and again and again. It got me thinking about how many things we keep getting wrong, how many things we do to hurt our own selves.

And yet, Allah keeps mending it. Again and again and again.

Allah never grows tired of mending it.

He never grows tired of healing us.

Subhanna Al-Jabbar. Wa Allahu akbar."

(via yasminmogahed)

time & time again You gave me a chance.

time & time again i did not learn my lesson, and screwed up somehow.

thank You,

for the chances

after chances

after chances.

for the mending,

and the healing.

for everything.

please heal me,
one more time.

in need of lovely cupcakes



(via 19miracles)

thinking of TWG.

dream home

(via uponafairytale)

WANT !!!

serendipity

(via uponafairytale)

THIS !!!

with you!
:)

exactly.

"cause whenever we are together,

i feel perfectly fine."

(via uponafairytale)

no other.

(via uponafairytale)

yes.
after all this time.

:)

true story.

"sometimes when I push you away,

it's because I need you to pull me closer."

(via uponafairytale)

in the name of Allah.

(via thebeautyofislam)

the 1st day of term 2.

May Allah grant me (and all of you) ease in all that we do. insyaAllah.
Amin.

Bismillah.

let me be your life

(via uponafairytale)


too much eh. hahaha.
oklahhhh, tak lah.
part of your life can?
demandingnyaaaa hidayah. chet.
but i know you will still love me for who i am. hehe.

and the reason is you

There's a reason why two people stay together:

They give each other something nobody else can.

(via uponafairytale)

everything, everytime.

"there are two reasons why people don't talk about something:


either it doesn't mean anything,
or
it means everything."

(via uponafairytale)

for me, it has always been the latter.

it means too much for me to even start talking about it.

i have to learn to voice out my views & not be afraid of conflicts because i guess, only with conflicts do we grow. only by having these talks will all these baggage be free.

so give me time,

give me a chance,

make me feel safe,

and hear me out.

show that you want me.

that you want to hear me.

that what i have to say is important to you.

that i am important to you.

that i mean the world to you.

that you treasure me.
cherish me.
adore me.
love me.

show me.

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‘Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.’

Chris – age 7

‘You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.’

Jessica – age 8

paper rose

(via uponafairytale)


have always been my favourite flower. :)