reminder to self

"If you never thank Allah after every smile,

Then you have no right to blame Him for every tear."

(via myquoteshome)

oh so true.

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times

(via uponafairytale)

If one only remembers to turn on the lights.

- Albus Dumbledore -

rainbow cupcakes

(via fyeahalltheprettythings)

craving for some pretty rainbow cupcakes topped with cream cheese & nutella fillings please. thankyouverymuch.

*grin*

Rolex timepiece

(via fyeahalltheprettythings)

gosh. too pretty.

be. still. dear. heart.

only with you

~ with you...

(via uponafairytale)

Dear December, hello again.

hello December.

it's you again.

i guess you should know by now that you are a very special month for me. :)

you didn't disappoint me last year.

and i am very sure you won't disappoint me this year, insyaAllah.

because this year,

i have you in my heart.

you in my heart.

♥ ♥ ♥ 

p.s. i love you

(via uponafairytale)

one of my favourite books of all time.

the one book which can make me laugh and cry so hard at the same time.

didn't quite like the movie not because of the movie per se but didn't like Hillary Swank playing 'Holly'.. somehow how i picture Holly in my mind (before the movie came out) just didn't go with Hillary (no offense to Hillary as an actress, i mean she's amazing as one).. but something just feels off for me with her playing that role.. 

then again, maybe it's just me.. hee..

melancholic rainy days

It's been a while. Realised i haven't update for the month of November when the start of this month, last year i was so scared to receive this (kinda dreaded) month of November and remember praying my heart to be strong.

But, time flies they say. And it's November again. Although right now, it doesn't feel so dreadful anymore. Alhamdulillah. :)

Time heals all wounds ya. Or love heals. I choose to say love heals. Not necessarily love from another human being, or specifically love from another half.
But knowing that Allah continues loving you, is actually enough for you to heal. Trust me.

Thank you Allah for Your mercy & Your love. Because You are the only One who doesn't disappoint. I must always remember that.

Just changed the background to suit the rainy mood these few days and probably the next month or so. I love rainy days. :) The melancholic feeling that accompanies rainy days are very very very much loved. :)

And feeling melancholic will make me blabber non-stop. Yes, like right now. Hahaha.

Which is why i need this blog. I cannot not write or in this case type. Have always had a journal even back in primary school because i need to let my feelings out even if it's just on a piece of paper (although looking back, my worries back then has become laughable now.. hehe). I cannot just keep these feelings inside me without having an outlet to vent. It's an escapism for me. Writing. Which is why I have journals for my kids (i love calling my students, kids). So that at least, they have an outlet to express themselves, away from the prying eyes of other people who just want to know what's going on but not exactly bothering or caring.

At least when my kids write, they know they have someone to respond to. Though some don't get why they need to write a journal, some actually expressed their inner deepest feelings into the journal. And i'm happy to respond to their writings. Even if i can't solve their problems, at least they feel better writing it down and sharing with someone whom they trust.

Oh well, this is what happens when i blabber. i start writing about something and end up with something totally different. hehehe.

till the next 'melancholic' entry.

toodles!

because you are my happy ever after

"We talked about the old times,

and it made me smile

because you didn't forget."

(via thingsiloveyoutoknow)

every time, every single time when we reminisced, or we happened to talk about the past...

to have all these memories washed over us,

may it be good or bad,

or happy or sad,

it made me smile just a little wider,

because i knew you still remember. :)

because these memories are what made us stronger.

and made us more in love ever. ♥

i love you, my other half, my soulmate, my happy ever after.

♥♥♥

heart-shaped brownies

(via uponafairytale)

awww.

i would sooo love to make these.

♥ ♥ ♥ 

because everyone have scars

"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers."

(via uponafairytale)

it's inevitable you know,

these scars.

it can be about anything and everything. or nothing at all.

it can be big, small, or cannot even be seen by the naked eye.

the only thing we can do is,

move on.

and let time (or love) heal the wounds.

only then we can forgive ourselves for getting ourselves wounded,

or forgive others for wounding us.

only when we can be happy on our own,

then this scar will be nothing but just a scar.

and we won't even feel the pain anymore.

after all, scars are part & parcel of life itself.

without these scars, 

to remind us of what we have gone through,

then we never exactly have grown up.

without these scars,

then maybe, we'll never learn to love ourselves better.

without these scars,

we might not even know how to love others proper.

so, thank you scars.

for teaching us about life & love itself.

we owe you one.

though you can be very painful sometimes.

once upon a time.

(via misswallflower)

I call this,

the Snow White's ring.

:)

keep moving

"Life is tough. It ain't about how hard you hit.

But it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward."

(via loveyourquotes)

my heart loves you.

"I'm looking at you

and my heart loves the view."

(via lovequotesrus)

every time darling,

every single time.

♥♥♥

glitter blue heart

(via fyeahalltheprettythings)

I just find this really pretty. I'm easy to please like that. :)

of work & love.

So the past weekdays has been nothing but hectic, rushing & most of all, just tiring. What with the cluster sharing project, plus the endless markings (which has to be put aside, yet again) and of course the exam papers which have started streaming in. So yup, last week was just capital Y-I-K-E-S!

But of course, nothing i can't handle. Chey. Even if i think i can't handle, i still have to do it anyway, haha. God doesn't give you what you can't cope eh. So yup insyaAllah all will be well.. :)

Have to thank the-other-half for being so super understanding although we were missing each other like crazy. Ok, I was missing him like crazy. I just want to think that he is too. Hahaha.

It reached to an end on Thursday when eventually the whole cluster sharing thingy was over. Alhamdulillah it went really well. Although of course there were some last minutes running here & there. But what is a major project without some last minute shenanigans. Hurhur.

Yup, so the sharing did push my boundaries a little bit, ok make that a lot. The picture above is me sharing with the G.O.H about our programmes. Nerve-wrecking experience definitely!
But it was a wonderful learning experience overall. I'm just glad & thankful i have great colleagues to work with. :) 
Best part was when VP said i am going through a 'steep learning curve'. :)) you are so right la VP. 1st year & already made to do cluster sharing. O.o
But the R.O. was quite impressed with what I've been doing so far. So it's all good.. :)

and the whole hectic week ended on a super sweet note with the-other-half. ♥♥♥
felt so loved and appreciate all his efforts. :) ♥♥♥
Best part was when the-other-half remembered the soft cookies i once baked for him. so so touched. i think it's time to bake another batch for love. :)

So yup, a couple of best parts this week. May this blessings always continue. Insya-Allah. :))

failed a thousand times

"A thousand times i've failed

and still Your mercy remains."

(via islamicthinking)

i'm truly sorry ya Rabb.

have not been doing my religious duties properly and consistently.

yet, You are still ALWAYS there for me.

:'(

nothing to wearrrr

(via loodledoodles)

ME!

Every single working morning!!! LOL!

one of the most happiest things on earth?

"one of the most happiest things on earth?
it's when you know that you're in love
with someone who is more in love with you."

(via lovequotesrus)

someone who is more in love in you. :)

♥♥♥

looking forward to...

(via setmyworldintomotionx)

THIS! With you!

*mentel face*

hehehe..