Showing posts with label scars. Show all posts
Showing posts with label scars. Show all posts

Sunday, 14 October 2012

because everyone have scars


"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers."


it's inevitable you know,
these scars.

it can be about anything and everything. or nothing at all.
it can be big, small, or cannot even be seen by the naked eye.

the only thing we can do is,
move on.
and let time (or love) heal the wounds.

only then we can forgive ourselves for getting ourselves wounded,
or forgive others for wounding us.

only when we can be happy on our own,
then this scar will be nothing but just a scar.
and we won't even feel the pain anymore.

after all, scars are part & parcel of life itself.
without these scars, 
to remind us of what we have gone through,
then we never exactly have grown up.
without these scars,
then maybe, we'll never learn to love ourselves better.
without these scars,
we might not even know how to love others proper.

so, thank you scars.
for teaching us about life & love itself.

we owe you one.
though you can be very painful sometimes.

Monday, 9 April 2012

because He is All-Merciful

"So it got me thinking about how many things in our lives we mess up again and again and again. It got me thinking about how many things we keep getting wrong, how many things we do to hurt our own selves.
And yet, Allah keeps mending it. Again and again and again.
Allah never grows tired of mending it.
He never grows tired of healing us.
Subhanna Al-Jabbar. Wa Allahu akbar."


time & time again You gave me a chance.
time & time again i did not learn my lesson, and screwed up somehow.

thank You,
for the chances
after chances
after chances.

for the mending,
and the healing.

for everything.


please heal me,
one more time.

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

everything, everytime.


"there are two reasons why people don't talk about something:


either it doesn't mean anything,
or
it means everything."

(via uponafairytale)

for me, it has always been the latter.

it means too much for me to even start talking about it.

i have to learn to voice out my views & not be afraid of conflicts because i guess, only with conflicts do we grow. only by having these talks will all these baggage be free.

so give me time,
give me a chance,
make me feel safe,
and hear me out.

show that you want me.
that you want to hear me.
that what i have to say is important to you.
that i am important to you.
that i mean the world to you.

that you treasure me.

cherish me.
adore me.
love me.

show me.

---

‘Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.’
Chris – age 7
‘You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.’
Jessica – age 8

Saturday, 17 December 2011

i hide my pain so well, i surprise even myself when it hurts.


(via weheartit)

sometimes i wish this heart doesn't hurt easily.
but they always say - "be careful what you wish for."

i guess i should be thankful i hurt easily, cos it means i'm capable of loving that much. but it also means people are capable of hurting me as much. you can never have everything can you.

dear heart, please stop hurting. please, i ask of you.

this is only the hurt part. i have yet to start on the trust part. sigh.
i guess when i stop hurting, that's when i'll start trusting again.

as much as i'm hurting, i will fight for the promises i made. 
or will i be left with no more energy to fight?
i guess only time will tell.

"not all scars show,
not all wounds heal."


but that's the sad me talking.

the optimistic me will say,
"what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger."

and i have always been optimistic like that. i am made this way.
so yes, i am stronger & hopefully wiser (after turning 18 a few days ago). hehehehehe.
because after all, not only i hurt, i do hurt people too (hmmm, probably it's my karma yes for hurting people's feelings whether i realise it or not. then again, it might be another of God's test for me). 
whatever it is, it's a cycle. part & parcel of life.
so i shall be a man woman & suck it up. hehe.

and at the end of the day,
i leave it to fate & God.
He knows best. :)

and psst, wanna know a secret?
the thing is, not only my heart hurts, the head is hurting too. all because i banged my forehead into the side of the bed when i woke up this morning. and it's hurting like crazy. ouch.
oh well, the perks of being so clumsy. O.o
hurhur.

Thursday, 15 December 2011

No one intends to cause pain



hence, the best thing to do is to manage the thing that you are in control of - in this case, your emotions - and learn to let go.

only then, insyaAllah, everything else will fall into place & you will find your peace.

Sesungguhnya, aku berbual so macam paham!!! HAHAHA! 
but i guess the least we can do is try? Afterall, no one intends to cause anyone else pain (unless they are sadistic like that) much less want pain inflicted upon themselves.

Wednesday, 2 November 2011

stronger than yesterday

"Don’t be so damn hard on yourself. Yeah, you screwed up. You’re not perfect, fine. Learn from it. But don’t punish yourself. Be kind to you, even when you screw up. You’ll bounce back eventually. You’ll make up for it."

- Stephanie Klein -

i know i am stronger than this.

Friday, 28 October 2011

dreading the inevitable

it's october the 28th.

somehow, the anticipation of the months of november AND december is causing my heart to beat very fast. i wish it's work-related but unfortunately it's not.

memories of yesterday somehow managed to make their way back into my head again. many months have already passed. i've known the actual reasons why things happened. i'm supposed to be okay.
they say time heals all wounds. but some say it's not time, it's love. Love heals all wounds.

but please, make them go away. :'(

only you can make them go away. you & your love.

the question is,
will you?
will i?
will we?

(i shall place the full blame on miss red riding hood who is coming soon for this emotional outburst. have been feeling like wanting to cry for the past few days, but the tears have not fall. trying my best to hold everything in. so please, don't mind me.)

this feeling will tide over.
i know it will.

-----

she asked, "you really still love me?"
he said, "i never stopped."

and she walked home with tears in her eyes.
cos truth is,
though she may not say it,
she is still truly in love with him.

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

breach of trust



i definitely deserve better.
if only people realise the hurt & pain that is affecting the person that they lie to.
the hurt & pain suffered by the person who trusts them & loves them the most.
the hurt & pain to know that the trust has been breached.
it's not easy to start trusting again.
not easy.
especially when there is this fear of getting hurt again.
:'(

Saturday, 30 April 2011

patience, strength, prayer

And whatever it is I'm going through right now, i have faith that Allah knows what is best for me.

"...Bear with patience whatever befalls you...." (Qur'an 31:17)

"Be not sad, surely Allah is with us." (Qur'an 9:40)

Our Prophet (pbuh) said: "Verily, if Allah loves a people, He makes them go through trials. Whoever is satisfied, for him is contentment, and whoever is angry upon him is wrath." [Tirmidhi]

I know He loves me, and He knows what i know not.

Dear Allah, strengthen my Imaan and let me be among whom you favour.

"Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs. So they returned with Grace and Bounty from Allah. No harm touched them; and they followed the good Pleasure of Allah. And Allah is the owner of Great Bounty." (Qur'an 3:173-174)

By leaving your affairs to Allah by depending on Him, by trusting in His promise, by being pleased with His decree, by thinking favourably of Him, and by waiting patiently for His help, you reap some of the greater fruits of faith. When you incorporate these qualities, you will be at peace concerning the future, because you will depend on Allah for everything.

Semoga hati ini tidak putus daripada menerima hidayah dan rahmat dariMu ya Allah. insyaAllah, amin.

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