because everyone have scars

"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers."

(via uponafairytale)

it's inevitable you know,

these scars.

it can be about anything and everything. or nothing at all.

it can be big, small, or cannot even be seen by the naked eye.

the only thing we can do is,

move on.

and let time (or love) heal the wounds.

only then we can forgive ourselves for getting ourselves wounded,

or forgive others for wounding us.

only when we can be happy on our own,

then this scar will be nothing but just a scar.

and we won't even feel the pain anymore.

after all, scars are part & parcel of life itself.

without these scars, 

to remind us of what we have gone through,

then we never exactly have grown up.

without these scars,

then maybe, we'll never learn to love ourselves better.

without these scars,

we might not even know how to love others proper.

so, thank you scars.

for teaching us about life & love itself.

we owe you one.

though you can be very painful sometimes.

keep moving

"Life is tough. It ain't about how hard you hit.

But it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward."

(via loveyourquotes)

so many words in my heart

"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter."

- James Earl Jones -

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breathes in, breathes out.

(via uponafairytale)

everyday i tell myself,

no matter how exhausted or upset i am, with the students or circumstances,

i have to:

Keep Calm & Carry On.

Thoughts for the end of the year

And so the year is coming to an end. For us teachers, the signal of the end of the year is represented by being called back to school for meetings (& more meetings & even more meetings). Hurhurhur.

The past couple of days have been a little bit draining (to say the least) to this brain of mine that has not been working that hard (ok, not working at all) for the past month or so. May i clarify, brain has not been working ONLY with regards to school matters. The brain though has been on overdrive for some other matters which is best not to mention. LOL.

Honestly, i'm kinda excited (got my form class, & my subject classes as well as my responsibilities for the various departments) but at the same time a bit overwhelmed by everything. It doesn't help that miss red riding hood is currently visiting, hence the feeling of wanting to smile but cry at the same time is making me all confused & very unsure of what i am supposed to feel actually.

I hate worrying about not being able to keep up or not doing the best of my capabilities or not sure of what to do or what not to do. I should stop i know. School has not even started & i'm worrying like crazy. Worrying about things that might not even happen. GAH!

Worry less, pray more eh please Cikgu Nor. Advice people pandai, when comes to diri sendiri, all the advices sendiri lupa. Chet.

But as i always say, baby steps eh?

Pray for me dear friends, & readers. May 2012 be a smooth-sailing one for us, but even if it's not, may we be given the strength & patience to overcome what God has decreed for us. Afterall, things will only befall you because He allows it to happen. And things He does not allow, will not happen at all. :)

With that, enjoy the remaining of your holidays my fellow teacher comrades. Even if you are not teachers, do make the best of the long NEW YEAR holidays. Spend it with your loved ones. Tell them you love them, spend time with them & most of all ALWAYS appreciate them, for everything that they have done for you.

HAPPY (advanced) 2012.

be kind. always.

"Always be kind,

for everyone is fighting a hard battle."

- Plato -

(via uponafairytale)

No one intends to cause pain

(via uponafairytale)

hence, the best thing to do is to manage the thing that you are in control of - in this case, your emotions - and learn to let go.

only then, insyaAllah, everything else will fall into place & you will find your peace.

Sesungguhnya, aku berbual so macam paham!!! HAHAHA! 

but i guess the least we can do is try? Afterall, no one intends to cause anyone else pain (unless they are sadistic like that) much less want pain inflicted upon themselves.

forgive though you've been hurt

"I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they are going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse."

- anonymous -

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Everyday is a new day.

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appreciate what we do have

(via weheartit)

but sometimes we have to let go to appreciate what there is to hold on to.

stronger than yesterday

"Don’t be so damn hard on yourself. Yeah, you screwed up. You’re not perfect, fine. Learn from it. But don’t punish yourself. Be kind to you, even when you screw up. You’ll bounce back eventually. You’ll make up for it."

- Stephanie Klein -

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i know i am stronger than this.

& i pray for this heart to be strong

"I prayed,
for this heart to be unbroken.
but invincible is impossible.
So i changed my pray,
just hope Allah make this heart stronger and stronger."

- Hilal Asyraf -

(via black-pearls)

it's November.

and i have this strong feeling that i will be absolutely fine.

(that all those emotional moments the past few days are just passing thoughts, something that i have to go through & that i'll actually be ok)

insya-Allah.

:)

of trials and tribulations

(via islamic-quotes)

Do not try to run away from trials & tribulations, but endure them with patience. They cannot be avoided, and there is nothing for it but to endure them with patience. How can you expect the whole of this world, and all that has been created therein, to undergo change and transformation just to suit your convenience?

The Prophets are the best of all creatures, yet they have always had to suffer afflictions and so it is for their followers, those who tread in their footsteps as they walk along their highway, emulating their example.

- Shaykh Sayyid Abdul Qadir Jilani -

as always,

trust Allah

&

have faith.

:)

will you?

(via leilockheart)

if you think it's worth it too,

then fight it with me.

What-if

"When it comes to relationships, people are always so scared of the what-if’s that they forget what is. They spend so much time thinking, “What if I get hurt?” and “What if it doesn’t work out?” that they stop thinking about things that are already real. They forget the feeling they get when the person they love walks into the room and the excitement that rushes through them when the phone rings cause it might be the person they are hoping to hear from. Never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on love … because what if this is the person you’re destined to spend the rest of your life with?"

- unknown -

(via runawaytrain)

dreams of happiness

via (uponafairytale)

"A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep. In dreams you will lose your heartaches. Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams, and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true."

 - Cinderella -

fate wins anyway

(via leilockheart)

"Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while, and then their time passed. And if they could've known that beforehand, maybe it would've all been OK. I told Ms. Synder that when I was grown up, I would take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Synder said I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone, and if I did, we would be together forever. Even now I believe for the most part, love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending, most of the time, and that sometimes despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway."


 - Meredith Grey -

i'm ok not ok

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because actually, each time, i want to say...

i'm tired. or sleepy. or drained. or disappointed. or emotional. or stressed. or angry. or frustrated. or lost. or scared. or worried.

you know, whichever feeling that i happen to feel on that day. (like today for example, i wanna say i'm crushed/disappointed/hurt.)

and open up my arms for a hug.

because i love hugs. i love getting or giving hugs.

but of course, most of the time (to prevent people from running away from me thinking i'm some loony because you know they normally ask "how are you?" just for the sake of asking) i will just say,

"OK."

behind that mask

(via uponafairytale)

my cikgu commented the other day (when i was laughing out loud),

"wah, gembira sungguh!"

and my response to that (without even the slightest pause) was,

"gembira dalam duka cikgu."

the moment i said that, i kept quiet. i was in shock myself.


and slowly,

i.started.to.believe.what.i.just.said.

experience = more wise, no?

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not sure why so emotional the past few days.

:/