Thoughts for the end of the year

And so the year is coming to an end. For us teachers, the signal of the end of the year is represented by being called back to school for meetings (& more meetings & even more meetings). Hurhurhur.

The past couple of days have been a little bit draining (to say the least) to this brain of mine that has not been working that hard (ok, not working at all) for the past month or so. May i clarify, brain has not been working ONLY with regards to school matters. The brain though has been on overdrive for some other matters which is best not to mention. LOL.

Honestly, i'm kinda excited (got my form class, & my subject classes as well as my responsibilities for the various departments) but at the same time a bit overwhelmed by everything. It doesn't help that miss red riding hood is currently visiting, hence the feeling of wanting to smile but cry at the same time is making me all confused & very unsure of what i am supposed to feel actually.

I hate worrying about not being able to keep up or not doing the best of my capabilities or not sure of what to do or what not to do. I should stop i know. School has not even started & i'm worrying like crazy. Worrying about things that might not even happen. GAH!

Worry less, pray more eh please Cikgu Nor. Advice people pandai, when comes to diri sendiri, all the advices sendiri lupa. Chet.

But as i always say, baby steps eh?

Pray for me dear friends, & readers. May 2012 be a smooth-sailing one for us, but even if it's not, may we be given the strength & patience to overcome what God has decreed for us. Afterall, things will only befall you because He allows it to happen. And things He does not allow, will not happen at all. :)

With that, enjoy the remaining of your holidays my fellow teacher comrades. Even if you are not teachers, do make the best of the long NEW YEAR holidays. Spend it with your loved ones. Tell them you love them, spend time with them & most of all ALWAYS appreciate them, for everything that they have done for you.

HAPPY (advanced) 2012.

of everything else

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the past couple of weeks has been spent preparing for the malay language fortnight programme in my school.

not that i did anything much (compared to the rest of my cikgus, i think what i did was peanuts.. hurhur..)

tapi penatnya, mengalahkan orang lain.. to the point i had to take MC yesterday cos of migraine.. hehehe..

i'm just so lembik like that la (jgn salahkan ibu mengandung nama moyang (inside (family) joke).. hahahaha)

hence,
this (swimming pool with a view) would be absolutely awesome to have right now.

with a loved one beside me of course.. teehee..

(penat tu penat jugak, mentel still mentel jugak.. LOL!)

 next week would be the last week of school for the kids..

that, i can't wait!

have a good weekend everyberdy!

tests make me forget to breathe

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yes, forgot to breathe.

especially now, when exams is just around the corner. and i'm still going through the endless notes frantically.
doesnt help that drilling is going on outside the house (they are constructing the lifts), drilling below the house (renovation going on).. drilling EVERYWHERE!
plus having to melayan my aching tooth / whatever it is that's causing the pain. just realised ada ulcer plak at the part where the tooth is hurting. :/
pain that is really out of this world, i'm telling you.
it's making me very moody cos i'm constantly in a state of hunger (good time to puasa really but i need my painkillers hence i need to eat) and i dont wanna eat bubur or oats anymore. the thought of it makes me wanna puke. 
currently i'm relying on mashed potatoes. but even that will tire me out eventually. have to constantly remind myself that this pain is temporary.

temporary.
 with all that is going on, i sometimes forgot to breathe.

i sometimes forgot that God is testing me.

i sometimes forgot that He will bring me through this pain.

So dear Allah, i know i always forget (yes humans are made with a sense of forgetfulness)

but do forgive me when i forget.

reminder to self:
there are others going through a much worse pain than me. others who are going through permanent pain. hence thank you Allah for this temporary pain. help me to always be grateful to You. Ameen.

virgin aeroplane ride

see that super happy face on board the plane.. excited giler!

masih boleh senyum.. teehee..

(these pictures below were taken by a friend)

muka cuak habis during take-off..
couldnt control my facial expression.. hehehe..

 i refused to let go of my friend's fingers until i was very sure the plane is as steady as a rock in the air.. huhuhu..

dalam hati i keep on berzikir, berzikir & berzikir.. baca ayat Qursi.. doa naik kenderaan.. i keep on reciting in my heart everything that i remember.. 

huhu..

it was a definitely a memorable first time on the aeroplane..

:)

always a first for everything

will be on board this plane in a few hours for my school field trip.

my 1st time travelling by air & i wont deny that i'm scared & nervous & excited all rolled into one. but mostly i'm just scared. :/

wasnt even able to eat much yesterday. felt like i was going on a 1st date with all the butterflies fluttering in my tummy. hahaha. sungguh la nonsense aku ni.

please pray that i have a safe journey to & back. although it's only to Langkawi, it's a huge step for me this one. plus, my parents wont be around to look out for this clumsy daughter of theirs. i'm on my own. just hope i wont cry. so melampau i know if i do cry. macam la pergi 4 bulan, padahal 4 hari. hahaha.

see you in 4 days time people, insya-Allah.. with stories from the land of Mahsuri.

"Verily in the remembrance of Allah, do hearts find rest."

-Holy Quran 13:28-

Dear Allah, please help me to calm down when boarding the plane. :)

thank You, & of course i love You.

the (second) last lap

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i know i'm gonna miss studying once i graduate from NIE.

will be starting my last semester in NIE in about 6 days time before i face the 'real-world' out there. time definitely flies huh. it feels just like yesterday when i first stepped into NIE.

I'm excited to start teaching again. I do miss teaching a lot but at the same time really scared to go through practicum (with the big kids!) one more time.

but as i always say,

baby steps. :)