melancholic rainy days

It's been a while. Realised i haven't update for the month of November when the start of this month, last year i was so scared to receive this (kinda dreaded) month of November and remember praying my heart to be strong.

But, time flies they say. And it's November again. Although right now, it doesn't feel so dreadful anymore. Alhamdulillah. :)

Time heals all wounds ya. Or love heals. I choose to say love heals. Not necessarily love from another human being, or specifically love from another half.
But knowing that Allah continues loving you, is actually enough for you to heal. Trust me.

Thank you Allah for Your mercy & Your love. Because You are the only One who doesn't disappoint. I must always remember that.

Just changed the background to suit the rainy mood these few days and probably the next month or so. I love rainy days. :) The melancholic feeling that accompanies rainy days are very very very much loved. :)

And feeling melancholic will make me blabber non-stop. Yes, like right now. Hahaha.

Which is why i need this blog. I cannot not write or in this case type. Have always had a journal even back in primary school because i need to let my feelings out even if it's just on a piece of paper (although looking back, my worries back then has become laughable now.. hehe). I cannot just keep these feelings inside me without having an outlet to vent. It's an escapism for me. Writing. Which is why I have journals for my kids (i love calling my students, kids). So that at least, they have an outlet to express themselves, away from the prying eyes of other people who just want to know what's going on but not exactly bothering or caring.

At least when my kids write, they know they have someone to respond to. Though some don't get why they need to write a journal, some actually expressed their inner deepest feelings into the journal. And i'm happy to respond to their writings. Even if i can't solve their problems, at least they feel better writing it down and sharing with someone whom they trust.

Oh well, this is what happens when i blabber. i start writing about something and end up with something totally different. hehehe.

till the next 'melancholic' entry.

toodles!

nothing to wearrrr

(via loodledoodles)

ME!

Every single working morning!!! LOL!

Resilience

(via simplynorule)

Perseverance.

That is what that's keeping me going, especially when it comes to work or school. whichever. doesn't matter.

Things can get really tiring at times,

and me, being the lembik person that i am,

sometimes, feel like putting everything away & just run (this part kalau run betul-betul takpe, at least dpt lose some babats... lol!)

so yeah, i'm proud of myself for surviving the 1st year!

4 more years to go...

why 4 more years eh? lepas tu nak quit ke? nak jadi tai-tai boleh? haha. ok diam.

but neh, i plan to do this long term.

because i love them kids.

yup, all puluh-puluh of them.

but 1st year of course the most memorable...

my 1st form class,

my 1st cca with my lovable mak-nenek dancers (having to layan all their bitch fights & i-dont-want-to-talk-to-you moments)... love them nonetheless. been there done that girls.

my 1st few malay classes. from sec 1 all the way to sec 3.

my first camp.

my first teachers day.

my first eee.pee.em.ass (which i have every reason to be proud of)

yup, will remember it definitely.

plus the fact that during this first year,
someone came (back) into my life. :)
alhamdulillah.

life seems complete doesnt it. :)

i have everything that i need, that i want, and so much more.

blessed indeed.
alhamdulillah.

love anthem.



i love the original video of this song. (but it doesn't allow playbacks on ipad/smart phones i think) so below is another video of the same song.

you are the only person who came to mind when i first heard this song.

so yes, this song's for you. :)

and yes,

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up


And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find


'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make


I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough, he knows
We got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it


I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

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this song's on repeat mode while i burn the midnight oil marking scripts & setting of papers & do some other things that needs my attention (all at the same time).

#note-to-self: i need to do this so that i don't feel so stressed up & too exhausted on weekdays (with all the tuitions that i'm doing). i can do this. bismillah. insyaAllah.

of everything else

(via thesunalwayssets)

the past couple of weeks has been spent preparing for the malay language fortnight programme in my school.

not that i did anything much (compared to the rest of my cikgus, i think what i did was peanuts.. hurhur..)

tapi penatnya, mengalahkan orang lain.. to the point i had to take MC yesterday cos of migraine.. hehehe..

i'm just so lembik like that la (jgn salahkan ibu mengandung nama moyang (inside (family) joke).. hahahaha)

hence,
this (swimming pool with a view) would be absolutely awesome to have right now.

with a loved one beside me of course.. teehee..

(penat tu penat jugak, mentel still mentel jugak.. LOL!)

 next week would be the last week of school for the kids..

that, i can't wait!

have a good weekend everyberdy!

a teacher's life

wow, it has been a while hasn't it since my last update.. hehe.

well, many things have been happening definitely. some good, some not so good, but mostly good. alhamdulillah. :)

had my 1st-hand teaching of the 1 Express students earlier today & alhamdulillah it went well despite the fact that i mis-judged the time & ended 10 mins earlier.. haha.. but thank god, i know how to membebel until the 10 mins was up.. LOL!

school has been great, colleagues so far so good, some colleagues are really god-sent. :) 

students are adorable really, not the cute kind of adorable but very baik & smart adorable.. i'm loving them already.. or maybe i should not speak too soon.. hehe..

all in all, i'm just really really very grateful for everything that has been happening..

may Allah continue to bestow good things upon me.. and if He wishes to test me, may i be given the strength to overcome it with patience.. may WE ALL be given the strength & patience to go through anything that is thrown in our way.. insya-Allah.. amin..

have a good week ahead everyone! :)

almost full-fledged

(via leilockheart)

come 27th of june, this is what i have to be.
SUPER in every sense of the word.

and i know i will only be able to do it with His help.
bismillah.

:)