because He is All-Merciful

"So it got me thinking about how many things in our lives we mess up again and again and again. It got me thinking about how many things we keep getting wrong, how many things we do to hurt our own selves.

And yet, Allah keeps mending it. Again and again and again.

Allah never grows tired of mending it.

He never grows tired of healing us.

Subhanna Al-Jabbar. Wa Allahu akbar."

(via yasminmogahed)

time & time again You gave me a chance.

time & time again i did not learn my lesson, and screwed up somehow.

thank You,

for the chances

after chances

after chances.

for the mending,

and the healing.

for everything.

please heal me,
one more time.

i hide my pain so well, i surprise even myself when it hurts.

(via weheartit)

sometimes i wish this heart doesn't hurt easily.

but they always say - "be careful what you wish for."

i guess i should be thankful i hurt easily, cos it means i'm capable of loving that much. but it also means people are capable of hurting me as much. you can never have everything can you.

dear heart, please stop hurting. please, i ask of you.

this is only the hurt part. i have yet to start on the trust part. sigh.
i guess when i stop hurting, that's when i'll start trusting again.

as much as i'm hurting, i will fight for the promises i made. or will i be left with no more energy to fight?
i guess only time will tell.

"not all scars show,

not all wounds heal."


but that's the sad me talking.

the optimistic me will say,
"what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger."

and i have always been optimistic like that. i am made this way.
so yes, i am stronger & hopefully wiser (after turning 18 a few days ago). hehehehehe.
because after all, not only i hurt, i do hurt people too (hmmm, probably it's my karma yes for hurting people's feelings whether i realise it or not. then again, it might be another of God's test for me). 
whatever it is, it's a cycle. part & parcel of life.
so i shall be a man woman & suck it up. hehe.

and at the end of the day,
i leave it to fate & God.
He knows best. :)

and psst, wanna know a secret?
the thing is, not only my heart hurts, the head is hurting too. all because i banged my forehead into the side of the bed when i woke up this morning. and it's hurting like crazy. ouch.
oh well, the perks of being so clumsy. O.o
hurhur.

No one intends to cause pain

(via uponafairytale)

hence, the best thing to do is to manage the thing that you are in control of - in this case, your emotions - and learn to let go.

only then, insyaAllah, everything else will fall into place & you will find your peace.

Sesungguhnya, aku berbual so macam paham!!! HAHAHA! 

but i guess the least we can do is try? Afterall, no one intends to cause anyone else pain (unless they are sadistic like that) much less want pain inflicted upon themselves.

stronger than yesterday

"Don’t be so damn hard on yourself. Yeah, you screwed up. You’re not perfect, fine. Learn from it. But don’t punish yourself. Be kind to you, even when you screw up. You’ll bounce back eventually. You’ll make up for it."

- Stephanie Klein -

(via runawaytrain)

i know i am stronger than this.

scars from a broken heart

via (leilockheart)

breach of trust

(via leilockheart)

i definitely deserve better.

if only people realise the hurt & pain that is affecting the person that they lie to.
the hurt & pain suffered by the person who trusts them & loves them the most.
the hurt & pain to know that the trust has been breached.
it's not easy to start trusting again.
not easy.
especially when there is this fear of getting hurt again.
:'(

i'm ok not ok

(via leilockheart)

because actually, each time, i want to say...

i'm tired. or sleepy. or drained. or disappointed. or emotional. or stressed. or angry. or frustrated. or lost. or scared. or worried.

you know, whichever feeling that i happen to feel on that day. (like today for example, i wanna say i'm crushed/disappointed/hurt.)

and open up my arms for a hug.

because i love hugs. i love getting or giving hugs.

but of course, most of the time (to prevent people from running away from me thinking i'm some loony because you know they normally ask "how are you?" just for the sake of asking) i will just say,

"OK."

neverending

(via leilockheart)

but nowadays, trust is hard to come by.

*huge sigh*

please, have heart.

(via islamicthinking)

please, i ask of you,
have heart.