melancholic rainy days

It's been a while. Realised i haven't update for the month of November when the start of this month, last year i was so scared to receive this (kinda dreaded) month of November and remember praying my heart to be strong.

But, time flies they say. And it's November again. Although right now, it doesn't feel so dreadful anymore. Alhamdulillah. :)

Time heals all wounds ya. Or love heals. I choose to say love heals. Not necessarily love from another human being, or specifically love from another half.
But knowing that Allah continues loving you, is actually enough for you to heal. Trust me.

Thank you Allah for Your mercy & Your love. Because You are the only One who doesn't disappoint. I must always remember that.

Just changed the background to suit the rainy mood these few days and probably the next month or so. I love rainy days. :) The melancholic feeling that accompanies rainy days are very very very much loved. :)

And feeling melancholic will make me blabber non-stop. Yes, like right now. Hahaha.

Which is why i need this blog. I cannot not write or in this case type. Have always had a journal even back in primary school because i need to let my feelings out even if it's just on a piece of paper (although looking back, my worries back then has become laughable now.. hehe). I cannot just keep these feelings inside me without having an outlet to vent. It's an escapism for me. Writing. Which is why I have journals for my kids (i love calling my students, kids). So that at least, they have an outlet to express themselves, away from the prying eyes of other people who just want to know what's going on but not exactly bothering or caring.

At least when my kids write, they know they have someone to respond to. Though some don't get why they need to write a journal, some actually expressed their inner deepest feelings into the journal. And i'm happy to respond to their writings. Even if i can't solve their problems, at least they feel better writing it down and sharing with someone whom they trust.

Oh well, this is what happens when i blabber. i start writing about something and end up with something totally different. hehehe.

till the next 'melancholic' entry.

toodles!

Thoughts for the end of the year

And so the year is coming to an end. For us teachers, the signal of the end of the year is represented by being called back to school for meetings (& more meetings & even more meetings). Hurhurhur.

The past couple of days have been a little bit draining (to say the least) to this brain of mine that has not been working that hard (ok, not working at all) for the past month or so. May i clarify, brain has not been working ONLY with regards to school matters. The brain though has been on overdrive for some other matters which is best not to mention. LOL.

Honestly, i'm kinda excited (got my form class, & my subject classes as well as my responsibilities for the various departments) but at the same time a bit overwhelmed by everything. It doesn't help that miss red riding hood is currently visiting, hence the feeling of wanting to smile but cry at the same time is making me all confused & very unsure of what i am supposed to feel actually.

I hate worrying about not being able to keep up or not doing the best of my capabilities or not sure of what to do or what not to do. I should stop i know. School has not even started & i'm worrying like crazy. Worrying about things that might not even happen. GAH!

Worry less, pray more eh please Cikgu Nor. Advice people pandai, when comes to diri sendiri, all the advices sendiri lupa. Chet.

But as i always say, baby steps eh?

Pray for me dear friends, & readers. May 2012 be a smooth-sailing one for us, but even if it's not, may we be given the strength & patience to overcome what God has decreed for us. Afterall, things will only befall you because He allows it to happen. And things He does not allow, will not happen at all. :)

With that, enjoy the remaining of your holidays my fellow teacher comrades. Even if you are not teachers, do make the best of the long NEW YEAR holidays. Spend it with your loved ones. Tell them you love them, spend time with them & most of all ALWAYS appreciate them, for everything that they have done for you.

HAPPY (advanced) 2012.

Everyday is a new day.

(via icanread)

chivalry cannot be dead, yet.

(via runawaytrain)

will marry the guy who thinks i'm too good for doors. 

hahahahaha.

and jars (or bottles). for i suck at opening them too.

not that i suck at opening doors, i can open them myself that's for sure.

but ohwell, just because.

hehe.

of everything else

(via thesunalwayssets)

the past couple of weeks has been spent preparing for the malay language fortnight programme in my school.

not that i did anything much (compared to the rest of my cikgus, i think what i did was peanuts.. hurhur..)

tapi penatnya, mengalahkan orang lain.. to the point i had to take MC yesterday cos of migraine.. hehehe..

i'm just so lembik like that la (jgn salahkan ibu mengandung nama moyang (inside (family) joke).. hahahaha)

hence,
this (swimming pool with a view) would be absolutely awesome to have right now.

with a loved one beside me of course.. teehee..

(penat tu penat jugak, mentel still mentel jugak.. LOL!)

 next week would be the last week of school for the kids..

that, i can't wait!

have a good weekend everyberdy!

the (second) last lap

(via icanread)

i know i'm gonna miss studying once i graduate from NIE.

will be starting my last semester in NIE in about 6 days time before i face the 'real-world' out there. time definitely flies huh. it feels just like yesterday when i first stepped into NIE.

I'm excited to start teaching again. I do miss teaching a lot but at the same time really scared to go through practicum (with the big kids!) one more time.

but as i always say,

baby steps. :)

escapism

(via anditslove)

i wanna do this ALL day long, ALL month long.

someone buy me a hammock please.

thank you.